I remember when she asked to come to my house and visit.......UMMMMM NO, NEVER IN YOUR NATURAL LIFE.
I swear people will try you and think you don't know what they are up to. They like to play naive and clueless....sorry, but ya got the wrong one.
Sunday, September 30, 2012
I Still Have Keys
Why he wanted me to have them I don't know. Yes occasionally I stop by for our special " Lunch Meetings" but other than that I don't use them. It ain't my space and you can feel the ratchetness of her energy all up and through.
Society and Lost Soiety
So here's my review on Society in Silver Spring, MD. The atmospher was absolutely sexy. Great ambiance and the food was divine. My girl Ella had the Caribbean Rolls - A combination of grilled seasonal vegetables, chicken, and cheese. Served with a side of mango avocado dip. She also had a curry infused hash and shrimp, Delish!! I had the Red Snapper - Pan seared snapper
topped with calypso sauce and stuffed with jumbo lump crab meat.
Served with sauteed spinach and carrot pilaf. Heaven!!
The music was horrible and I took a swig of Toni's drink to help me out. By the way Toni, whatever that was, was NASTY lol!!!! I am sorry, I am not a drinker, occasional wine here and there but the hard stuff you can keep. Back to the music...did I mention it was horrible. It seemed like the DJ had not updated his playlist since the late 80's. I kept ribbing my girl who happens to be a legendary DJ in New York. I joked that I know she wanted to throw herself on a dull knife having to endure the mess he was spinning on the turntables. We had a good time regardless and made the best of the music. If you are looking to have a great meal and have access to downtown Silver Spring, stop into Society. If you are looking to hear good music...leave after dinner and go somewhere else.
Ella and I headed down to U street, her idea not mine. I really wanted to go home. There I was in a sea of inebriated young 20's through early 30's.....not exactly where I wanted to be. I had to indulge my friend, after all I dodged this same situation a couple of weeks ago, so I had to make it up to her. Lost Society is a young, colorblind preppy, trendy bar lounge. The decor was simple but beautiful and everyone looked like they modeled for the Gap or Benneton lol. The music, was hot!!! A great mix of disco meets house. No Biggie or even Madonna....just great pulsing instrumentals. Wait staff was cool except for a couple, they need to work on how they move about the crowd of patrons. I did not taste the food, but will be back to visit and see what they are working with. Again I have been there done that when it comes to the club , lounge scene...so I was more than over it. If you are looking for a young trendy spot, Lost Society is the place for you.
The music was horrible and I took a swig of Toni's drink to help me out. By the way Toni, whatever that was, was NASTY lol!!!! I am sorry, I am not a drinker, occasional wine here and there but the hard stuff you can keep. Back to the music...did I mention it was horrible. It seemed like the DJ had not updated his playlist since the late 80's. I kept ribbing my girl who happens to be a legendary DJ in New York. I joked that I know she wanted to throw herself on a dull knife having to endure the mess he was spinning on the turntables. We had a good time regardless and made the best of the music. If you are looking to have a great meal and have access to downtown Silver Spring, stop into Society. If you are looking to hear good music...leave after dinner and go somewhere else.
Ella and I headed down to U street, her idea not mine. I really wanted to go home. There I was in a sea of inebriated young 20's through early 30's.....not exactly where I wanted to be. I had to indulge my friend, after all I dodged this same situation a couple of weeks ago, so I had to make it up to her. Lost Society is a young, colorblind preppy, trendy bar lounge. The decor was simple but beautiful and everyone looked like they modeled for the Gap or Benneton lol. The music, was hot!!! A great mix of disco meets house. No Biggie or even Madonna....just great pulsing instrumentals. Wait staff was cool except for a couple, they need to work on how they move about the crowd of patrons. I did not taste the food, but will be back to visit and see what they are working with. Again I have been there done that when it comes to the club , lounge scene...so I was more than over it. If you are looking for a young trendy spot, Lost Society is the place for you.
What Will The New Ride Be?
What Should We Do?
Got a couple of interesting texts over the weekend. I had to remind him to delete the evidence because home girl is PHYCO!!! Poor fella. Now folks I'm not saying what he's doing and how he's doing it is right....you can't help who you love. We fight, we make up, we fall out, we make love....but it's getting to the point where she's so crazy with it. He's tired of her, tired of lying to her and to be honest I am too.
Ain't nothing worse than feeling trapped. I really have to ask God to deliver us out of this. As much as I think she's a nut, I feel sorry for her.
Ain't nothing worse than feeling trapped. I really have to ask God to deliver us out of this. As much as I think she's a nut, I feel sorry for her.
Literally
Just getting in the house and bed, had an amazing night out. Hot cappuccino and Nina lulling me to sleep. Church in a few hours, Jesus take the wheel lol, I'm pooped! Reviews to come.
How We Do!!
Give thanks for friends!!! Nothing like a night on the town, excellent food, beautiful people and great music. Started in Silver Spring and ending the night in the heart of the city!!! 
Saturday, September 29, 2012
The Tech World for The Seasoned
Pray my strength, I am about to try and explain Skype to my Daddy lol.
Am I Turning Into My Mother?
A genuine food snob. My mom is one of the toughest food critics I know. Tried to have lunch from two places today and sent all the food back. I refuse to pay to eat garbage. I am still reminiscing about my lamb and wine last night, I put my foot in it...should have made more.
It's Oh So Quiet!
One of my favorite artist....and she so darn cute to boot. Notice her taps, ahhhh I don't miss tap class one bit , but I love that she incorporated it in her video.
WINNING!!!!!
Just got done talking to the best representation in the biz. I turned every bit of concern and shred of info over to him, and he assured me he would handle it. Let's get ready to RUMBLE!!!! DING, DING DING!!!
In An Instant
My Sister said something very profound to me while she was in the hospital earlier this year. She had suffered a seizure and a mild heart attack. I was extremly sick and would not dare try to go to ICU. I didn't want to compromise her health any more than it was.
The connection we have with each other is something only God has his hand on. I remember it clear. I was in bathroom praying, it had to be about 2 am. The phone rang out...It could only be her. I ran to the phone and a faint voice said: "Some people beg for money, clothes, and other material things, I beg God for my life." It was true, we are so focused on things other than God, that we forget we can be snuffed out in an instant.
The connection we have with each other is something only God has his hand on. I remember it clear. I was in bathroom praying, it had to be about 2 am. The phone rang out...It could only be her. I ran to the phone and a faint voice said: "Some people beg for money, clothes, and other material things, I beg God for my life." It was true, we are so focused on things other than God, that we forget we can be snuffed out in an instant.
So Long Summer, Hello Fall
Groove Theory?
Dusting off my keys and hitting chords before the weekend is over. I swear my lesson was brutal, but still had to pat myself on the back a little. I had to shake the cob weds out because I took a break on theory, but as he asked questions and asked me to sing certain scales....it all slowly started to come back. I realize his tough love before was only him wanting me to be the best I could be. I was so rebellious but now I surrender to the music full. Oh gig coming up in Oct...attempting something funky and adventurous, STAY TUNED!
Friday, September 28, 2012
Goot Night!
Ok my Tweets, Facebook and Bloggers, it's been fun, but I have to hit the books. I will leave you with this.
There are always going to be ppl that will counter what you say with a negative.You say blue,they say blah,you say love they say hate.
Dedicated to you Jus, you are beautiful and extraordinary. As you were talking I was typing and inspired. I know what's happening is hard, but tough times don't last for long. Everything I just wrote I, I hope helps. Love you!
There are always going to be ppl that will counter what you say with a negative.You say blue,they say blah,you say love they say hate.
Dedicated to you Jus, you are beautiful and extraordinary. As you were talking I was typing and inspired. I know what's happening is hard, but tough times don't last for long. Everything I just wrote I, I hope helps. Love you!
Say It Loud...Do Better By Me!
We have to do better by each other folks. As human being I always pose the question, how have you treated your fellow man? I always say If you love me, you will do better by me as a human being. If the love of God is with in us, he requires it right? RIGHT!!!!! Because we are so quick to hurt one another. Jus, you know I love you and I hate that you are going through this. When someone you know or don't even know does wrong by you, love them and love them hard. I was just in the store and a man was hitting on/flirting or whatever...it was very inappropriate. I was kind, smiled and kept moving about the store. I did my best to ignore him but he kept on.
He then lashed out about how all women were bi%$hs and he hated us. I immediately started to pray. That was hurt he was speaking. It had nothing to do with me and everything to do with his issues. I always say, If you really love me, then do better by me as a human being. I promise, you'll benefit from it. What if I lashed out? What if I yelled and disrespected him? I am not loving him am I ? No! So Cuz, don't slap anyone tonight lol....I ain't bailing you out. You benefit when you love and require others to love you. Every human being can benefit. And loving from a distance is cool, I just don't want you to regret things based off how you react right now. I love you girl!!!!!!!!!!
If all else fails just walk away. If they can't really love you like any of their fellow man, keep praying and walk away. You should not have to endure that kind of treatment.
He then lashed out about how all women were bi%$hs and he hated us. I immediately started to pray. That was hurt he was speaking. It had nothing to do with me and everything to do with his issues. I always say, If you really love me, then do better by me as a human being. I promise, you'll benefit from it. What if I lashed out? What if I yelled and disrespected him? I am not loving him am I ? No! So Cuz, don't slap anyone tonight lol....I ain't bailing you out. You benefit when you love and require others to love you. Every human being can benefit. And loving from a distance is cool, I just don't want you to regret things based off how you react right now. I love you girl!!!!!!!!!!
If all else fails just walk away. If they can't really love you like any of their fellow man, keep praying and walk away. You should not have to endure that kind of treatment.
Real Love Does Not Hurt
If you really love me, then do better by me as a human being. I promise, you'll benefit from it. #Agape
The Cause
Not every cause requires you to fight for it. Some people are quick to defend and support things they know nothing about. If you are blind but have not vision, what's they point? So someone says jump, do you always say how high? It's ok to think for yourself.
It Never Feels Good When...
Well my mind and heart are all over the place again. The little one did not leave in the best off moods. It shifted just that quick, and now I will try to not spend the whole weekend worried about him. Parents, what do you do if and when this happens to you? Today was no different than any other. Home from school, plenty of hugs and kisses, snack, and even played a new game until it was time to go. We wait, play tickle, laugh, hug and kiss and then it's time for him to actually go and he starts crying and saying he's scared. This went on for what seemed like forever. He begged to stay, he begged for me to go with him, he hid, he ran, he contested, he pleaded, it was really hurtful to see and feel.
I pray that his crying stopped and he was eventually at ease. I pray the spirits in the environment he has to enter are kind to him, I plead the Blood of Jesus over him. I pray that he did not exhaust himself. I swear that hurt to see, and it hurt even more because any answers I could give him, are way to adult and too soon to answer. As a parent you want to shield your child from the ills of the world. You don't want any hurt or harm to come to them, but the reality is it will happen. For now and as long as I can, I will protect him, guard him. I talk to him all the time about being a big boy and he can do anything in life he puts his mind to.
As a child, I experienced way too many things I shouldn't have. I forced me to worry about things no child should even have to process. So parents, remember to foster a healthy, stress free, drama free, sin free, safe, sound, happy, full of laughter home and life environment for your babies. Don't expose them to sin, and hatred. Allow them to be children and let their only worry be, when the next tickle session begins. I am not going to lie, I miss him and we are tighter than two peas in a pod. I would give my life for him and I can't wait for his return. I sometimes wonder that if he experiences negative energy be it toward himself or me is the reason for his hesitation. Kids know, don't think that they don't. I am patiently waiting for his return and to have him back in my arms. Oh and my mother assured me that he probably did not cry for long...that made me feel a little better.
I pray that his crying stopped and he was eventually at ease. I pray the spirits in the environment he has to enter are kind to him, I plead the Blood of Jesus over him. I pray that he did not exhaust himself. I swear that hurt to see, and it hurt even more because any answers I could give him, are way to adult and too soon to answer. As a parent you want to shield your child from the ills of the world. You don't want any hurt or harm to come to them, but the reality is it will happen. For now and as long as I can, I will protect him, guard him. I talk to him all the time about being a big boy and he can do anything in life he puts his mind to.
As a child, I experienced way too many things I shouldn't have. I forced me to worry about things no child should even have to process. So parents, remember to foster a healthy, stress free, drama free, sin free, safe, sound, happy, full of laughter home and life environment for your babies. Don't expose them to sin, and hatred. Allow them to be children and let their only worry be, when the next tickle session begins. I am not going to lie, I miss him and we are tighter than two peas in a pod. I would give my life for him and I can't wait for his return. I sometimes wonder that if he experiences negative energy be it toward himself or me is the reason for his hesitation. Kids know, don't think that they don't. I am patiently waiting for his return and to have him back in my arms. Oh and my mother assured me that he probably did not cry for long...that made me feel a little better.
Being Social
Shout out to my Facebook, Blogger and Twitter folks. I am loving the feedback on my questions. I see I have your wheels turning. I love it keep it coming!
Bondage
People think they know you, they will tell stories about who they have decided they think you are, and what they think you do. In there mind you deserve to be mistreated and disrespected by them and others. Whatever your past is always remember you don't live there anymore, even if they refuse to believe otherwise. Pray for them, don't let their bondage be yours.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
#Epic Fail Email Response....Kinda
Two of the dresses I rquested have been sold out for sometime. I have been
periodically coming to the site to see if they would appear again. I
plan on attending the 2013 Grammy Awards and I really wanted to wear one
of those dresses. I also wanted to know about your sales. I just
happened to look and see some of the fab dresses were on sale and I
missed a chance to buy. When you have sales like that, can it come to
your followers emails? I would hate to miss those kinds of sales. I am
praying the Electrified and Evolve come buy. I can see myself in LA with
one of those on. Keep up the good work!!
Response: Unfortunately I can't get the fabric anymore, I am so sorry. I would love for you to wear one of my designs on the Red Carpet. Let's set up a meeting in New York to see what else could work. Again so sorry.
Response: Unfortunately I can't get the fabric anymore, I am so sorry. I would love for you to wear one of my designs on the Red Carpet. Let's set up a meeting in New York to see what else could work. Again so sorry.
Slow Starts.
So I am not going to lie, I have a fantastic schedule. Work and class line up just right and I am home most days to greet my lil one at the school bus. Apparently that's not good enough for him lol. He thinks I should stay home and wait for him all day. He also called me cute and asked " Are you ok baby", that kid cracks me up.
No real sleep since last night and up early, my best friend brought me breakfast and coffee. It was as if she knew It was going to be a slow start for me. My mom made me lunch and I was able to make it out on time today. Friday's are my "Self Care" day, I will be calling my doctor in the am. I can't take another night like like last night.
No real sleep since last night and up early, my best friend brought me breakfast and coffee. It was as if she knew It was going to be a slow start for me. My mom made me lunch and I was able to make it out on time today. Friday's are my "Self Care" day, I will be calling my doctor in the am. I can't take another night like like last night.
Last Night Was...........
ROUGH! Last night was horrible. I dealt with the pain in silence, because I didn't want to wake the kids. I was able to fall asleep at some ungodly hour and still get up to get them off to school. I am hurting today folks. I am still in pain and very, very tired. As I walked past my little one's room last night, I heard a faint voice. I stopped at the door to listen and heard my baby singing in his sleep. That just made my heart melt. I am so thankful he is a happy, well adjusted child.
Obediant 2008
I am praying for so many things on a daily basis like not letting outside forces work my nerves. I am trying to find the BEST OF ME and get her back. I can't play around anymore and think I can sin and then turn around as ask God to bless me, so I have to be obedient. God knows my heart and my desire is to be exactly who he says I am. I used to struggle with the fact that I am not yet married and caring for a child but God does not want me to feel ashamed. I am trying to accept that and wait on the Lord with all the faith I can muster...get it muster like mustard seed. Ok well you know what I mean I am a faithful to God and what he is going to do in my life.
I won't lie sometimes I get angry,scared,mean spirited,sad...but I am only human and I usually consult God for forgiveness right away. That has how it has always worked for me. My relationship with God is an intimate one,he's my friend and confidant when I need a place of refuge.I apologize for letting my flesh dictate my actions because I know he would not be pleased. I remember when I was 13, I told my mother I wanted to be a nun. I never did become a nun but I have always been that child who turned to him for everything. I know some folks that know me don't know that side and that's cool because it's not for everyone. I will admit there were times when I was so sad and angry and disappointed that my faith was not always there. I would wonder why now, why me, when will I be blessed not realizing I already am. Growing.
October 18, 2008
I won't lie sometimes I get angry,scared,mean spirited,sad...but I am only human and I usually consult God for forgiveness right away. That has how it has always worked for me. My relationship with God is an intimate one,he's my friend and confidant when I need a place of refuge.I apologize for letting my flesh dictate my actions because I know he would not be pleased. I remember when I was 13, I told my mother I wanted to be a nun. I never did become a nun but I have always been that child who turned to him for everything. I know some folks that know me don't know that side and that's cool because it's not for everyone. I will admit there were times when I was so sad and angry and disappointed that my faith was not always there. I would wonder why now, why me, when will I be blessed not realizing I already am. Growing.
October 18, 2008
Excited 2008
God is moving and I am so excited. I am finally moving,finally got a better ride all on my birthday which was yesterday. I can't wait for him to bless me with another job when the time is right. I can't wait for him to make a way for me to go back to school.
February 20,2008
February 20,2008
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Why Now?
Bare with me, my thoughts are together and all over the place. When I say "I love you, he says I love you more." Why do I feel crazy about that now?
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Run Forest Run!!!!!!!
Have you ever encountered the Double Mouth Devil? It's the one that says " Thank you Jesus, Thank you Lord", and then says "I Hate You!" When you see them, don't make eye contact,back away slow, then RUN FO YO LIFE lol!!!!!!
No Weapon!!!
So the day before my lil one's birthday I started feeling physical horrible. I told my best friend about it, and brushed it off a little. I didn't want my heath to stop or hinder his birthday fun...but I kept thinking about what I went through before. Welp folks, I have my first set of meds and my sushi from Sticky Rice and I am putting my feet up. I have the idiot box on with Maury's foolishness and I am taking it easy for the rest of the day.
I am not worried because I survived it the first time, and I will survive it again. My faith has grown leaps and bounds over the years. Folks listen to your body, see your doctor, rest, rest, rest. I had texted my best friend the other night and just said pray for me. She said a lot of things but the thing that stood out to me was you will not fall nor fail, take a break, but don't stop and know that God has got you. I am thankful for God's protection and I stand on his promises.
Demons and Devils come in all forms, some will try to attack your mind, your heart, your reputation, your children, your health. But not on my God's watch. Be easy folks and stay healthy!
I am not worried because I survived it the first time, and I will survive it again. My faith has grown leaps and bounds over the years. Folks listen to your body, see your doctor, rest, rest, rest. I had texted my best friend the other night and just said pray for me. She said a lot of things but the thing that stood out to me was you will not fall nor fail, take a break, but don't stop and know that God has got you. I am thankful for God's protection and I stand on his promises.
Happy Birthday!!
Every 9 seconds in the US a woman is assaulted or beaten.
http://domesticviolencestatistics.org/domestic-violence-statistics/
Yes, Yes, Y'all!
While it's easy to blame others for the mess that is your life. Sometimes you have to accept the fact and be accountable for how dysfunctional you were to begin with. Sometimes people find it easy to make others a target. It's called deflecting and it's unhealthy. Find what makes you happy, I make it a point to have happy time all the time lol. Reconcile things that caused you discomfort and pain and live your life to the fullest. I had a girlfriend come to me in church and said, " J, messing with you, I might complete my Bucket List." We had a good laugh over that one... all I could say was thank you for trusting how adventurous I am and wanting to take the ride with me.
I made a vow to myself that I would walk away from people, places and things that were messy. I cut it out like cancer. There is no mention or sign of it, NOT A TRACE. I refuse to give it space in my life. It is something I do to safeguard my child and myself. In 2009 a light bulb went off, a fire in my belly and a swiftness in my walk emerged. It was there then and it's even brighter, hotter and faster now. The more people try and pile, push, and press their mess my/your way, pray fervently, work hard and smile even harder babies.
I am still chewing on that awesome word delivered on "Women's Day" yesterday...I swear it was just what I needed. You say blue, they say blah....some people will hate you and the life you live just because. Keep Shining!!!!
I made a vow to myself that I would walk away from people, places and things that were messy. I cut it out like cancer. There is no mention or sign of it, NOT A TRACE. I refuse to give it space in my life. It is something I do to safeguard my child and myself. In 2009 a light bulb went off, a fire in my belly and a swiftness in my walk emerged. It was there then and it's even brighter, hotter and faster now. The more people try and pile, push, and press their mess my/your way, pray fervently, work hard and smile even harder babies.
I am still chewing on that awesome word delivered on "Women's Day" yesterday...I swear it was just what I needed. You say blue, they say blah....some people will hate you and the life you live just because. Keep Shining!!!!
Monday, September 24, 2012
What's Your Choice?
Generational curses don't have to be generational choices!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shouts and runs around the church house.
Where Will We Land?
So it pays to volunteer and keep connections. I have set the ball in motion and the results on Citizenship there and here are under way. I have an appointment with the Embassy and the actual thought of making their a home has my tummy doing excited somersaults!!! Y'all thought I was playing, we are gonna blow this Popsicle stand in 5, 4, 3, 2...
On the heels of the anniversary of my sister's death, I am still emotional and sad, but also energized. Every time I think about her, I still feel a little mad, but I remember how proud she was of me, and how much she wanted me to follow me dreams. The very thing I hated, I missed so much...her loud mouth...the same loud mouth I can still hear over the crowd at a show cheering me on. God I miss you!!!
I look at my lil one and see how much he has flourished. The days and nights and energy I have spent pouring and molding, I see it paying off. My dreams for him stretch all over the world and the heavens....but we will settle for another state or continent for now. We've enjoyed the video chats with my family and friends, and I believe they are just as anxious for us to get there as we are. I am so thankful to God for giving me the strength to push a little more everyday, especially when I was tired and wanted to give up. I see the finish line here and the start there and it gives me butterflies.
The little one and I are either going to fly out to see Mi Padre or have him come here. Truth be told I prefer to fly there. The last time he was here he decided he want to move back all together.....sorry Daddy not this time lmbo!!!! He and I under one room for more then a month as an adult ain't gonna work. Ahhhhhh my stomach hurts from laughing at that one. Sorry but love you Dad, same goes for my mom. I will say being their only child has it's benefits hummmmm.....yeah naw!! lol.
All my continent crossover's hit my inbox I need and want info!! Betty, I miss you and can't wait to see you. You have been a tremendous help. When you left the US I though you were nuts, but I see you were able to do it with ease. Welp folks, just wanted to plug in with you. Today was super productive and full of information. It's homework time...I have the finish line in view. The sooner I finish the sooner we can have this place in our rear view mirror.
On the heels of the anniversary of my sister's death, I am still emotional and sad, but also energized. Every time I think about her, I still feel a little mad, but I remember how proud she was of me, and how much she wanted me to follow me dreams. The very thing I hated, I missed so much...her loud mouth...the same loud mouth I can still hear over the crowd at a show cheering me on. God I miss you!!!
I look at my lil one and see how much he has flourished. The days and nights and energy I have spent pouring and molding, I see it paying off. My dreams for him stretch all over the world and the heavens....but we will settle for another state or continent for now. We've enjoyed the video chats with my family and friends, and I believe they are just as anxious for us to get there as we are. I am so thankful to God for giving me the strength to push a little more everyday, especially when I was tired and wanted to give up. I see the finish line here and the start there and it gives me butterflies.
The little one and I are either going to fly out to see Mi Padre or have him come here. Truth be told I prefer to fly there. The last time he was here he decided he want to move back all together.....sorry Daddy not this time lmbo!!!! He and I under one room for more then a month as an adult ain't gonna work. Ahhhhhh my stomach hurts from laughing at that one. Sorry but love you Dad, same goes for my mom. I will say being their only child has it's benefits hummmmm.....yeah naw!! lol.
All my continent crossover's hit my inbox I need and want info!! Betty, I miss you and can't wait to see you. You have been a tremendous help. When you left the US I though you were nuts, but I see you were able to do it with ease. Welp folks, just wanted to plug in with you. Today was super productive and full of information. It's homework time...I have the finish line in view. The sooner I finish the sooner we can have this place in our rear view mirror.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Bed Time and Organization
So my little guy likes to try me. He will go to the bathroom, kiss me, hug me, tell me about the dragon under his bed, ask to watch TV past his bed time, come kiss and hug me again, go back to the bathroom, ask to sleep with in my bed (BIG EPIC FAIL PARENTS) a zillion times before he gets it. His room and bed are his own and I am all about encouraging independence.
I will be hitting up my favorite store to get some organizational items for my little guy's room. His wardrobe has gotten ridiculous. I think my boy is a little metrosexual lol. I have to allow him to wear his clothes but with uniforms there really is no need, except for church. I don't miss washing laundry that much, but I also feel like his regular clothes go waste. Well they all don't go to waste, because I am firm believer in the hand me down system. I was privileged to meet a young lady earlier this year. Turns out she's knows several people I know and is a really a sweet heart. I had been holding onto my lil guy's crib set not wanting to donate, but give it to someone I knew could benefit from it. Well sweetheart just had a handsome healthy baby boy and I am more than a little excited to give it to her. I am so happy I held onto it, because I knew someone would put it to great use.
We rearranged the whole living room and I have to say, I LOVE IT! I love it, but truth be told, I have a hankering to move. Not just a little move, a big move, to a far away distant land. I was in my car on the way to school and work the other day. I looked out the window and drifted into a day dream. I imagined that my dream state/country looked like that. The horn behind me blew and I was quickly snapped back to reality. I don't want to day dream about it anymore. I am lining up the last stretch of school and I will make a decision as to where the wind will blow the little guy and I. Keep dreaming folks!
I will be hitting up my favorite store to get some organizational items for my little guy's room. His wardrobe has gotten ridiculous. I think my boy is a little metrosexual lol. I have to allow him to wear his clothes but with uniforms there really is no need, except for church. I don't miss washing laundry that much, but I also feel like his regular clothes go waste. Well they all don't go to waste, because I am firm believer in the hand me down system. I was privileged to meet a young lady earlier this year. Turns out she's knows several people I know and is a really a sweet heart. I had been holding onto my lil guy's crib set not wanting to donate, but give it to someone I knew could benefit from it. Well sweetheart just had a handsome healthy baby boy and I am more than a little excited to give it to her. I am so happy I held onto it, because I knew someone would put it to great use.
We rearranged the whole living room and I have to say, I LOVE IT! I love it, but truth be told, I have a hankering to move. Not just a little move, a big move, to a far away distant land. I was in my car on the way to school and work the other day. I looked out the window and drifted into a day dream. I imagined that my dream state/country looked like that. The horn behind me blew and I was quickly snapped back to reality. I don't want to day dream about it anymore. I am lining up the last stretch of school and I will make a decision as to where the wind will blow the little guy and I. Keep dreaming folks!
Protect Your Children At All Cost
Heart is heavy. When childen come home distressed and complaining about their time away, it is a clear sign steps need to be taken. Parents if you suspect foul play or something is not right notify someone immediately and get your child help and seek legal assistance. You child's mental, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual welfare is nothing to play with. No child should have to suffer.
Here To Stay
I ain't goin no where DEVIL! Feet firm, and steadfast....why, BECAUSE I LOVE HIM, AND HE LOVES ME! I'll keep coming back to him because he wants me, it's just how things are. The relationship we have is beautiful, and he give me a joy that some have no clue about. You will always lose, it's just your fate, no need to be a sore loser. Beat It!
Saturday, September 22, 2012
ReTweet
Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself
to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define
yourself.
Vampy Lips
So I love my make up, I especially love my Ruby Woo. As of late, I've been causing fever with it and so it's time to kick it up a notch and cause the boys to fall out lol. Enjoy!
All The Ammunition I Need!!!!
I feel a Law $uite in my $pirit thank you Father for the me$$y people of the world. It really pay$ to have a Watchdog $ervice on your $ide $$$$$$$$$$$$$angin all the way to the bank!
Why Am I So Emotional?
Sometimes I am so focused on pushing others to the next level up, you don't really realize how you touch them. Thank you Hazel for this. I miss you so much you organized nut lol. Gosh I envy that in you lol. The more you and others leave comments like this just confirms the direction God wants me to go in. You actually made this Tough Girl get misty eyed and that don't happen often, kudos to you lmbo.
HazelBeam said...
Hey Diva!!! I just wanted to say, you keep me rolling. You make me laugh, cry and sometimes spit my food out...you are so generous with yourself. I was wondering if you could come and speak to a Women's Group? I want to catch you before you get too busy. Are you going to be speaking with Bam's Foundation? Your story needs to be heard nationally. I will inbox you the details, just let me know if and when. If you need any help, homework ,a sitter, just let me know. I know you run your life efficiently, but I also know the huge undertaking you have. I am so proud of you.
HazelBeam said...
Hey Diva!!! I just wanted to say, you keep me rolling. You make me laugh, cry and sometimes spit my food out...you are so generous with yourself. I was wondering if you could come and speak to a Women's Group? I want to catch you before you get too busy. Are you going to be speaking with Bam's Foundation? Your story needs to be heard nationally. I will inbox you the details, just let me know if and when. If you need any help, homework ,a sitter, just let me know. I know you run your life efficiently, but I also know the huge undertaking you have. I am so proud of you.
Keep Shining!!!
There will be people who will hate, be irritated, annoyed, mad, pi$$ed off, upset, agitated, furious, angry, miffed, confused, baffled, stunned, sad, verklempt, vexed and perplexed that you don't fir societies and their stereotype. For me, I've been called a "Baby Momma" with is disgusting and disrespectful, I've been called bitter, hurt, crazy, uneducated, a welfare recipient, lazy, angry you name it. None of these bother me, it just shows the rest of the rational thinking world who the cancer is. These people are diseased in mind and they spew it to others in hopes they will be joined in trying to pull you down. It's hard for someone people to believe you are more than. It scares them when they find out you are all that and a fabulous pair of pumps....or they already know you are all that and a fabulous pair of pumps and can't stand it.
These people are insecure, and it has bred contempt for you....regardless.....KEEP SHINING!
These people are insecure, and it has bred contempt for you....regardless.....KEEP SHINING!
My Dream
Ok I know you like all my little jokes I make and silly updates, but I am for reals with this .....oh Good Morning FB! I had a dream last night, I was
in Italy and recorded a cd. It actually had cover art, which I didn't
like, but it was art. It had 12 songs and sounded half decent. In the
dream I felt rushed to record, and wasn't given a chance to review and
redo the rough stuff. I was disappointed about that to say the least because the music and vocals are EVERYTHING. It
seemed so real, so much so I almost went to iTunes when I woke up.
I
don't know exactly what it means but I do know this. I pray that if I
ever decide to put my own music out, not the stuff I write and record for others, the music makes sense, it
tells a story, my vocals are tight and I don't feel rushed. I thank you all for always supporting me, coming out to see me perform, and wanting to work with me. The feeling is mutual and I am overwhelmed by your love. I also have a little bit of bad new about my performing this Holiday season. I have some shows lined up but due to politics, the version you saw me in may not happen. Once I know what the theater and director decide to do, we the cast can give more informed information. I just wanted to give you a heads up since Fall is approaching. Anywho, I fell asleep last night, didn't watch my movie and didn't crack open my homework. Momma works hard as you know, my body was not having it last night and I had to obey. You have to allow your body to recharge folks. So today I shall do all I set out to do last night and a little extra today.
Thanks for
reading and be easy folks.
Tonight, Tonight
So my girl came by yesterday and said " I need to live"...she quickly caught herself because she knows her idea of "living" is very different from hers. My club, boom boom lounge days were over in my twenties. I admire her though...she can walk into a club or bar and just hang out. I could never do that, one I don't really drink, and I find it extremely annoying and difficult to talk to anyone who is inebriated .
I gave in and told her we could hang tonight, but my confession is I purposely took too long tonight so I could stay in and watch this foreign film I've been dying to see. I'm so bad,lol. I'll go out with her tomorrow ,but not before all my homework and cleaning is done. I just pray it's not a club setting. My Momma and I got Mani/Pedi's , eyebrows so our girl time was worth missing any club any day.
I promised my girl, I would take her with me next time I hit the road. I enjoy exploring, especially with friends.
I gave in and told her we could hang tonight, but my confession is I purposely took too long tonight so I could stay in and watch this foreign film I've been dying to see. I'm so bad,lol. I'll go out with her tomorrow ,but not before all my homework and cleaning is done. I just pray it's not a club setting. My Momma and I got Mani/Pedi's , eyebrows so our girl time was worth missing any club any day.
I promised my girl, I would take her with me next time I hit the road. I enjoy exploring, especially with friends.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Coward
Cowards are people who hide, conduct themselves in atrocious behavior, throw rocks and hide their hands. They would never have the guts to be out in the open with their foolishness. I know most are afraid of getting their teeth knocked out and their head split, that's why they hide. Cowards will sit back and watch foolishness take place and do nothing....it's ok we get it, you're scarey lol.
Adults like me will tell you to your face what the deal is....trust me I have people who have witnessed my work. It's uncomfortable, it's not pretty, sugar coated, but I don't waste time. I am all about facing your fears, so when you are feeling like a coward, be extra bold with your mess. You may end up in the hospital or even in a grave....but at least you went out big. I like to say Go Big Or Go Home!
Adults like me will tell you to your face what the deal is....trust me I have people who have witnessed my work. It's uncomfortable, it's not pretty, sugar coated, but I don't waste time. I am all about facing your fears, so when you are feeling like a coward, be extra bold with your mess. You may end up in the hospital or even in a grave....but at least you went out big. I like to say Go Big Or Go Home!
Take Me
God I get it now!! It was a light bulb moment, eureka!!! for the life of me could not understand why I was catching all the hate coming from her but after consulting with others I get it. Their consensus was all the same and conclusive. SHE'S CRAZY, NUTS, INSECURE AND JEALOUS. She is a child masquerading in a woman's skin and she is too far gone mentally to see it. I really do feel bad for her. It must be anguish to be in her position. I can't even imagine what it is like having to live fully immersed in that kind of sickness. On river of denial she continues to float, and I truly fear that she will go right over a waterfall of endless turmoil. I really used to ponder this foolish soul's actions like it was one of the great mysteries of the world...when all I had to admit was, she's mentally unstable. I didn't want to give her that, but I have gone over this a million times in my head and that is all I am left with. Perhaps she's depressed as well, either way she's sick and I feel sorry and pity for her. For all those who are in a relationship with someone who is battling this, my hats off to you. I know at times it can feel very trapping but know you don't have to stay out of pity. Dang shame.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Vermin
Tears flowing, heart is full, overwhelmed because life can't get any sweeter. I sit back and look at my life and all the blessings seen and unseen and I am so amazed. You cut out the non factors and see the peace increase. They are the roaches of society, and have no value. Stomp, then squash, drag your foot so the body is dismembered and repeat lol. Creatures like this will always be vermin, so kill onsite. I bet if you sprinkle a little Holy Water on the kill site the ground will sizzle lol. Remember they are the pests, do not pet, feed or be kind to them.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vermin
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vermin
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Legitimate Rape? A Rape Victim and Counselor Reflects on Rape Culture Myths | RH Reality Check
Please check out my beautiful Sister in council, life and love. I am so honored to call her my friend and I am so proud of her bravery. I am seriously considering going back in to counseling. After reading my girl's article, I feel compelled with a great responsibility to go back.I am not going to lie, I miss it and the village of hope and security we were able to offer.
Legitimate Rape? A Rape Victim and Counselor Reflects on Rape Culture Myths | RH Reality Check
Legitimate Rape? A Rape Victim and Counselor Reflects on Rape Culture Myths | RH Reality Check
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
It's About To Go Down!!!!
Monday, September 17, 2012
Romney Tells Wealthy Donors That 47% Of Americans Are Lazy Moochers
Romney Tells Wealthy Donors That 47% Of Americans Are Lazy Moochers: pIt’s only September, but Mitt Romney has already written off almost half the country’s voters. A hidden-camera recording obtained by Mother Jones captures Romney at a private fundraiser telling donors that, “There are 47 percent of the people who will vote for the president no matter what. All right, there are 47 percent who are [...]/p
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Epic Weekend, A Celebration of Love
So this weekend was EPIC!!! First party was with my baby's friends, then we hit the road to WEST,VA. All the major players showed up, everyone who mattered helped to add 20 more productive and happy years to my child's life. I even got a little emotional because of the outpouring of love for my little one, but also for me as well. My role as his mother is something I will never mind going above and beyond for...but it is always feels good to be acknowledge. I even invited his other parent. He didn't show up which I could care less, but it was the decent thing to do, so I did it. I only care about seeing the boy smile...and smile he did with his Spider Man Web Shooter Gloves!!! Lawd lol, I was finally able to give him that thing after weeks of keeping it a secret, and that I had actually purchased it weeks ago . He loved all his other gifts, and the best surprise of all...his God-Parents showed up!!!! That was a major surprise I was sitting on as well. He is so in love with his God-Daddy and his God-Daddy is crazy about him. Now that's a real man, and I am so blessed he continues to play a pivotal role in my son's life.
What an awesome crew I roll with, they made the drive to support and celebrate the little one's 5 Born day. I am still gushing and high from how fun and amazing the weekend went. I am even more thrilled because I didn't have to bring home any food, you would have thought you jokers never ate lol!!! No really I put my foot, back and even an arm to make sure the spread was fit for my lil King.
He is the joy, love and light of my life. Everyday I thank God for him, I swear his little soul saved my life. Thank you Father God!!!
Sorry I have been away from my blog folks, but I was busy.....living well, good, happy, stress free, energized. I just got hyped typing that last part...guess it's because I have more exciting things to come lmbo!! Summer 2012 has been crazy fun, I can't even front.
Until Later Toddles!
What an awesome crew I roll with, they made the drive to support and celebrate the little one's 5 Born day. I am still gushing and high from how fun and amazing the weekend went. I am even more thrilled because I didn't have to bring home any food, you would have thought you jokers never ate lol!!! No really I put my foot, back and even an arm to make sure the spread was fit for my lil King.
He is the joy, love and light of my life. Everyday I thank God for him, I swear his little soul saved my life. Thank you Father God!!!
Sorry I have been away from my blog folks, but I was busy.....living well, good, happy, stress free, energized. I just got hyped typing that last part...guess it's because I have more exciting things to come lmbo!! Summer 2012 has been crazy fun, I can't even front.
Until Later Toddles!
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