What does the Future Hold?

In a funk but still functioning today. I have no choice...I am a mother lil one is sick and will probably take him to the doctor if he is not better by Tuesday. I threw up 3 times on Friday. It was not a good look because I was at a beautiful beach house and could not even enjoy it. On top of not feeling well I have a major decision about my life and the direction it will go. It hurts really bad and I hate having to do it.

I hate crying because it's so physically and emotionally draining but I could not stop the flow. Feeling very defeated, heartbroken and helpless. Sometimes we can want what we want...but it's not always best for us...or is it? I have to remember that no matter what my heart says."Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again."

Find Your Happiness and Run With It

I said that yesterday on my Facebook page. I got a lot of great responses mainly because we all need hope. I go through the highs and lows of life and I am happy that at the end of the day I am still standing.

I was feeling pretty low last week when my bank account had been on E and they closed my savings. I have been doing all I can to find work, take care of my child and try to revive the artist in myself. I am spent. It's hard to write a song with a screaming baby in your ear, hence the time this blog is being written.

I want to sing again, act again,go back to school, move, find employment, buy a home,fall in love, get married, have another child,be happy and run with it.

The things I want in life are not just for me now, but for Jackson. Doing it by myself has not been easy but I am stronger than I thought...to God be the Glory. I need for my son to see that sometimes your will not have every one's support, you can accomplish your goals and fulfill your dreams.