So far Brian's funeral, it was like 25 years since I saw any of my old friends. Lizz Wright concert, Easter egg hunt, best friend took me on a cruise, Ximena graduated, hung out with my picture husband Troy,James poking his head in the back, Memorial Day cookout,went to see my old tour mate Chinah Blac for Can A Sista Rock A Mic, she killed it, Nicci showed up and she sang her heart out, took Jackson to his first baseball game, giving the blue eyes at a birthday party Khristi(photographer) is amazing behind the camera. Oh yeah your girl did it, I got a 2.9 GPA..3 A's, 3 B's and a C...not happy about the C...but it's better than a D. I really need to find ways to study before fall semester starts because things will get harder. I've got moving on the brain...really want to move to Europe in the next few years. I need to set some things up once I graduate and then we are out of here. For now SC,NC and TX. I was able to interview with an employer down in SC...my friends really came through...like always. Still pending, it's in God's hands.
Men to the left and right and to be honest...I am so lazy. I might not be ready...to tired to be honest and no time for men who are unprepared. I am doing to job of two parents in one household, so social time is challenging right now...but I do what I can. As I am typing this...my little one is right up under me.
Soooo I won't call him a "friend" but he is hella yummy physically. I love a man that works out. He's checking me out, but he is shy...so it's like talking to a bashful 13 year old boy...only cute for so long. I don't want to lead him on, but I don't know how to cut him loose without hurting his feelings. Then there was the guy I thought was a thug. We had our first phone conversation and he was so articulate...I judged...I was wrong(shame on me). Not sure I am attracted, time will tell. Ahhh then there is him...I think he thinks, I am supposed to be available for him all the time. He's really yummy but I am sure I don't want him on a serious level. We met over a year ago and I am still not smitten. It's crazy the men I meet are real lookers, educated and seemingly sweet...but really shy and lacking in self confidence.
Jackson...what can I say...getting big. Did I tell you we had our first field trip, train ride, baseball game, Six Flags...oh we have been all over the place. He's a ball of energy, no wonder I am tired all the time lol. I am so in love with being a mother. I was told it would not happen for me and now I have the privilege and honor.I would love a little girl and then I am done. I guess I might want to get a man and then act like I want to keep him(marry him)first. No more baby mamma for me, it's tough in many ways,but I do know I want another...love child? There would have to be special support on that one the father would need to be very supportive. I did it alone before, but "IF" I had to, Daddy needs to be hands on. Last year was a breeze, love all around, extra help...no regrets. I am happy I got a taste of what It could be like, now I want it all the time. I never had a guy around my son romantically, but I appreciated all he did from the outside.
What else...oh went to NC to check out homes, jobs, celebrated Nicci's birthday and see my God-Brother. Larry paid for my ticket and so I hung out in NYC last weekend...had a ball. We danced the night away, went to Coney Island, Church and then I beat it back to DC...I love Larry(friends to the end)Well I have a long day ahead and I must get myself together. It was good, see you in a couple of days.
