The painful side of it.

Do you really want to be used by God? If so it's not always smooth or glamourous. 

https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=10152632499433609

Grammy Holiday Party!

I got to dress up and be frisky for the Grammy Holiday party in this cute dressed I picked up while out in LA. I took my amazing and talented friend as my date. Good times!! 

I'm a proud member of the Recordibg Academy Washington, DC Chapter. Loads of fun and talent all in one room. 

Social Media

It's the end of 2014 and as much as I hate to I have to address  behavior. 

Anything you read on this could or could not be a figment of your imagination. Anyone that I am connected to via social media has either met me personally, worked with each other artistically or introduced themselves personally via the physical or cyberspace. This is a place where I bare some things raw, my truth or others. I post on what I see and feel going on around me. It is not solely limited to me personally.

The thing is if you don't actually know me, you'll never really know. That's why there my social media that is part private and part public. I think it's sad and fasinating that you still feel the need to "try" and stalk me. I extended you the opportunity to not be a cowerdley lioness and just be gangsta. Aren't you tired of trying to follow me, connect the dots and make heads out of tails, you must be tired or you're still single. 

Please don't waste another year trailing and imitating me, it's not good for you. I pray you find your own happiness and individuality. I don't know where things went downhill mentally and emotionally for you but there is help. I don't say that to be shady or even take mental and emotional illness lightly. There is help and I hope you find it. Get back to being a whole person and not the insecure woman that you've become. 

My Petition

You say you mean good for me

But you don't do it

You say you have a plan but you just don't go thru with it

You say you know the way to go

And I should follow

But all of your empty promises

Leave me hollow

And oh

How do I trust you

How do I love you

When you

Lie to me repeatedly

And oh

How do I have faith, in you

When you just don't come thru

Like you say you could

Oh, say can you see [2x]

You say that I'm wrong for

Stating my opinion to you

You say that I'm wrong and there'll be quiet consequences too

But I know my rights babe

There'll be no law abridging

The freedom of my speech

Or the right for me to petition for a remedy of grievances

And I want to trust you

I want to love yeah

But you lie to me repeatedly

And oh I want to have faith in you

But you just don't come thru

Like you said you could

Oh say can you see

Hmmm

I want fresh fruit, clean water,

Air that I don't see

I want the feeling of being safe on my streets

I want my children to be smarter than me

I want, I want to feel

I want to feel, I want to feel free

For real ya'll

I'm just telling you so you know

I want to, I want to have faith in you

I really do but you keep lying to me

It hurts

I believe, I believe you owe it me

Give it to me like you said you would

Hmmm

Oh say can you see

Hmmm

Oh say can you see

Oohh say can you see

Hmmm

By the dawn's early light

Tamir Rice

Exactly why nothing that resembles a gun is allowed in my home or in the hands of my child. 

http://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/family-tamir-rice-12-year-old-shot-cop-files-wrongful-n262661

Goodnight Moon

I've got a ton of homework to do but I'm going to rest tonight. It's been 3 days of sleepless nights with super kid. He's on the mend and my mind is at ease so I'll let my body follow suite. Goodnight my loves. ❤️💤

A simple and sincere thank you.

People need to hear thank you, I love you, I appreciate all you do. Show them, tell them before they leave this earth. Have you ever stopped to think that the energy and effort one gives makes your life easy and free from worry? Most take that for granted without as much as a hint of gratitude for the love they pour into their work. I honor my mother and father and all those who help me and my son. A thank you, a hug, a smile goes a long way. Give them their flowers while they're alive because tomorrow is not promised

http://www.upworthy.com/a-mother-finally-says-what-she-really-thinks-about-her-child-her-daughters-reaction-priceless?c=sr1&sr_source=lift_facebook

Live,Love,Laugh

I can be a super, duper, silly kid and I'm glad you appreciate that in me. ❤️

Finals Week

The past week has been SO stressful and full of stuff. My mind and body are tired and I'm looking forward to getting some much needed rest. My little one has no idea how I get it ALL done. I need coffe, with some Kahlúa along with a Calhoun bath. And to think I'm ready for baby number two!! 

Peace and Justice for All

I thank my friends and family from all different backgrounds for continuing the conversation on race and how we heal. 

I could be dead tomorrow

Life is short, and it can be over in an instant. I could leave you with this message of love today and you could be planning my funeral tomorrow, it's just that real. Personally I've struggled to forgive or at times live more free more so out of fear. I have found that I can forgive and not forget and to use decrement without punishing. I don't want to leave this earth knowing I didn't do my best to right wrongs, love harder, communicate and invest time in myself and those I love all because of fear and pettiness. Yes those that have hurt us may never be accountable or make us whole. Reset, fall in love with yourself, allow yourself to heal and you will be whole again I promise with or without them. ❤️

When they don't feel good

My heart breaks when he's not well. All he wants to do is be up under mommy. 

Grammy Season is upon us!

This year in LA for the Grammys. I studied, met up with my old flame from my Harlem/Brooklyn days before I was a mom, ate well, dressed cute, attended the Grammys, and made connects. All perks of being a Grammy ambassador. The designer shipped my dress overnight from NY to LA and cut it to size just from a picture, she is amazing!! I had a blast, should I go again? 

Afro Momma!!

Many of you wanted to see all my natural hair, well here it is! My SisterFriend curled it up for me for my big night. I've been natural for four years now and I'll admit it can be tiresome. I usually cowash, braid it up and keep it moving. Who wants to do all this hair all the time. 

Sighhhh

Oh how I wish I had a clone, a real vaca, a few extra dollars, a few more winks of sleep. I feels like every minute of my days are planned and little to no time to complete things for myself. It's finals week and I'm pushing hard for all A's.  I'm running on fumes and coffee, pray my strength. A mother's work is never done. 

As You Like It

Great time at the theater!! Exceptional performance of "As You Like It" at the Lansburgh Theater. Gotta love Shakespeare!! 

My movie snub

So since Ridley Scott doesn't feel like the minority community should have a feeling about his new movie Exodus: Gods and Kings, I'm sure he won't mind if we do a little manipulating ourselves. Take that you jive turkey! 

I know you're not sorry but...

I have to forgive you anyway. I can't waste anymore time wondering why you tried to hurt me. I also can't waste anymore time punishing you. I have to love and release you to your highest good. To kill you with kindness, love and compassion. I must do this because perhaps you will learn from the example. All the things you've done, or said that could have attributed to any hurt I felt I have to turn it around and shower you with nothing but good, nothing but good, nothing but good. I pray you learn the path of love, forgiveness and accountabilty. Until you gain those things in it's purists forms you'll be at a standstill in love, and all areas of your life. Nothing but good,nothing but good, nothing but good I wish for you.Watch my wingspan, now watch me fly high, fly wide, fly far far away off into the sunset, off to find my happiness.

Peace

As You Like It

Great time at the theater!! Exceptional performance of "As You Like It" at the Lansburgh Theater. Gotta love Shakespeare!! 

Study This

Until you have that ahhh haaaa lightbulb moment. 

Read this until you fully comprehend.

You choose her, and she choose you.