About Last Night

I'm was very excited and humbled to be invited to an exclusive listening event of the dynamic husband and wife duo of Michael Trotter  and Tanya Blount. I'm humbled to have been invited to such an awesome event and be able to love on and connect with fellow artist I happen to be able to call friends.   

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Social Media

So the COGIC video of the "I'm not gay no more" guy has been spreading like wildfire. Let me be clear, I could care less if you're gay, straight, or have three eyes. If I laughed at it, it certainly wasn't because of his sexual preference, and totally because of the way in which he spoke. Society and even church will judge and crucify you with no mercy. Let your freak flag fly and may the chips fall where they may. Everyone is subject to scrutiny. #SocialMedia

Sleep Talkers

4:00 am and I hear " My mommy is going to save the world." I love my kid and I love to hear him talk in his sleep. 

Mothers

Beard Gang

Just followed a "Beard Gang" on social media and he was in the rotation. *Grabs fan and clutches pearls, My Gawd! 

I love my followers!!

I love you guys and thanks for funneling your questions and comments to my Facebook page. I'm trying to ignite a positive flame and I have you all to thank. Keep the questions and comments coming, I love interacting with you. ❤️

Dry!!!!!

Ugh!!! My face is sooooooo dry! The wintertime is doing a number on my face I just want to scratch my skin off and replace it. Help!! How do I not lather my face with grease/lotion and still feel moisturized? This goes for my hair as well. I've done Olive oil, hate the smell of coconut oil. What's a girl to do. I'm going to go broke experimenting. One thing I do know is staying hydrated helps. Drink up ladies and gents! 

Plans for the Weekend...Cause Baby it's cold outside!!

Favor

I had someone question how I obtained certain things, my car, the way I dress, opportunities, where I live. Of you've ever felt away about anything about me or anything I have, CHECK YOUR FLESH! If you've ever thought I've needed to do anything underhanded to get what I have then CHECK YOUR FLESH!! Isually when someone doing right sometimes jealousy sets in. It's called favor baby, nothing but God's favor. 

The moment I turned it all over to him was the moment the blessings started to pour in. I had to trust God and the process and do some work on myself. There was a time where I thought I'd have help, and support from particular people then God said "I've never left your side yet you look to man to help you." 

You can't have trust without faith, it just won't work. I asked God to protect my heart, install discernment, and give me strength. I asked for little things like my van to hold up through the winter because being stranded at night in the cold with my child broke my heart and got tired real quick. He turned around and gave me my dream car right on time, it was like it was waiting for me.  I asked for the drive to obtain good grades and he gave me peer and professional recognition. I asked to be loved, he gave me pure, unconditional , through the fire and trenches, hills ,valleys and mountain top love. 

It's called favor, I'm covered, I'm happy! Not bad for a hood rat huh? 

A Man's House...

A man's house is his castle until his queen comes home. 

Phew

The amount of coffee I've consumed in the past few days should be illegal. Trying to condense our home has been utterly exhausting. This will probably be our last move before we actually leave the area. 

There always has to be a concrete plan that should also entail decency and order. I used to just dream about things I wanted. I desired for certain things to happen, for love to come into my life, to set goals and actually see them accomplished. If you desire the same things, like myself you've got to do the work. If your waiting for life to happen, and things to just fall into your lap, you'll be waiting for ever. Everyone has gifts, some tap into theirs while other don't, if your seeking change find your purpose and let God use you. Give him the Glory by allowing your gift(s) to shine. 

I'm happy to see each dream, desire and goal realized one by one and I'm praying the same for you. #DreamBig

The beauty of prayer

And there he was, facing #Mecca, carpet down, shoes to the side saying prayers in the parking lot. I watched him from a distance in awe. Once he was done he passed by me and I told him , to watch him pray moved me to prayer myself. Of course I started to cry as we spoke because we both know and understand just how good God is. #Christian #Muslim #God #Prayers #Faith 

Wedding Venues

I was watching a #RHOA show where they clowned Kandi Burruss about the location of her wedding venue. Well I believe I walked into mine today and I dare anyone to make a comment. It's not about where, it's about who you love. Hell we could get married in a backyard, park, even a street corner as long as I'm marrying who I love. 💏👰🎩💍💒❤️

That Night

The night it happened. In front of all our friends. I certainly wasn't expecting to walk into it, but I'm glad I did.

Click to see what's sexy

Voting!!

Hello November

I'm thinking about hosting a beauty form with some of my good girlfriends who happen to give good face and skin care advice. Fall is here and winter is just around the corner. Take care of your skin!!

Happy Days!!

Every problem has a solution. 

Growth

Not everyone will move forward and grow with you. It's ok to let go of things and people who do not grow you. I made a choice to end a friendship with someone because of their lifestyle choices. I wished them well and made the separation. They didn't accept it, they acted out in hurt and ridiculed me for not sticking it out. Just because you've know someone half your life doesn't excuse bad behavior. Especially if there's no accountability. Growth hurts sometimes but it's necessary. 

Kingdom Kid

Crack me open and break me down Lord. Destroy what is not like you and replace it with your likeness. 

Mend A Broken Heart

She just wants to feel love, protected and cherished. 

I thought this picture spoke volumes, I'd be great to see the Man'd heart be mended as well. 

You and I.

Bad night last night all due to fear, hurt ,and poor communication. It spilled over into this morning with me making the first move. I usually run, shut down and shut out those that I love who have hurt me; but I'm growing and my relationships are EVERYTHING to me. 

I've learned that shutting down is my way of protecting myself when I'm hurt, not realizing that me backing away, hurts the other person too. I rob them of the opportunity to connect with me. I come across as scary ,when in actuality I'm afraid of being hurt again ,so I put my guard up. I put up a hard shell of armor and swear off all those who try to cross my path again. All I ever want is to feel loved,protected and cherished. Thank God I've grown and I'm continually working on deliverance. I thank God that I expressed myself today. I was still somewhat defensive when I expressed myself, just knowing I'd recieve a cold and emotionless response but instead you responded with the purest form of unconditional love. I knew then that you really loved me. You in turn poured out your heart right back. My God! Love has to work both ways. 

We both hurt each other ,and we hurt knowing we didn't take care of each other's feelings which shows selflessness . We talked it out and sincerely apologized to each other. The tears that we both shed washed away the bruises from our past that others had left. I remember pouring out my heart and sincerely apologizing to someone years ago and all they were concerned about was not being respected. Today I've learned that in order for one to respect you ,you have to genuinely respect the other's heart as well and willingly be able to put your heart out there too. I understand now that, that individual's reaction to me was feigned emotion. 

Today's love lesson brought us closer to each other and tightened our bond. I'm getting used to this healthy , unconditional type of love and communication ,and I look forward to us continuing to growing together. What's the point of being in a relationship if only one is participating? It's a selfish tactic usually out of fear. How you live in that fear and hurt sets the tone for how you love and move about in the world. Today was an eye opener. There was a flood of tears and openess which is a testimony to how much we truly love each other. I thank you for loving me flaws and all. 

Team Natural

It's been about three years since I went natural. I have a love hate relationship with my hair. Some days I love it, and others I have fights and stare downs that usually end in my threatening to pull out the creamy crack. One of my big days is fast approaching, geesh that was quick, nevertheless I need my hair to be beautiful. Blow out? I've not applied heat of any sort in three years, damn that's good! Blow out it is. 

Mine

On my mind up past my bedtime, no rest at the kingdom

Alone in my place, my heart is away

All that I can think of is, we should get married

We should get married

Let's stop holding back on this and let's get carried away

[Pre-Hook:]

Stop making a big deal out of the little things

Cause I got big deals and I got little things

Got everything I'm asking for but you

Stop making a big deal out of the little things, let's get carried away

Come right now, you know where I stay

It's the little things

Nothing makes a girl like me feel appreciated than chocolate, especially of it's @godiva . This gift was beautifully wrapped and spot on in my taste. A little wine and bubbly to boot doesn't hurt either. I'm thankful to be thought of and I'm going to save my @barefootwinerd and @jamjarwines for a quiet night at home. Feeling #appreciated 🍷&🍫❤️

Misogynistic Christians

On my other blog I'll be posting about misogynistic Christians. Head over to http://febuarysgirl.blogspot.com/?m=1 for other musings. I've got some good stuff coming I promise. 

Sex Offenders

http://thegrio.com/2014/10/31/mystikal-sex-offender/

The Life You Want Tour

You had to be there. 

Mr. Sandman

🌜💤He's calling me to bed and who am I to keep him waiting. Night lovies! 

1926 vs 2014

So Miley's picture reads very different and disrespectful for me, but this is considered art. Josephine is probably rolling in her grave. 

Nature Girl

MyOne of my favorite places to hike. I still haven't worked up the nerve to scale "The Rock" but one day I will. I'm most at peace when I allow myself to indulge in things I love like this. I prayed and climbed, and walked and prayed the whole time. This is where I feel closest to my creator. My short person was right alongside me for the whole three hours. He even threw a mini fit when it was time to stop. I think I have a little rock climber on my hands. 

❤️

Something about when they kiss your forehead. It's too cute and too endearing. 

Don't Confuse the two

It's Contagious

The heart is precious and when broken it takes time to heal, this does not mean it's incapplable of loving, in fact Christ teaches us to love and forgive in order to heal. It is also a gift when those that let us down ask for forgiveness and contribute to the healing.Love has never killed anyone last I checked, and if you love someone, let them really know how you feel before it's to late. As you can see I'm in a loving mood today, it's in the air and it's contagious, I hope you catch it! 

Who makes you feel like this song?

I have flashbacks whenever I play this song. I think about the fullness that love can give one's heart and I smile, I cry and sometimes giggle when I think of love. It's a brilliant thing to have don't you agree? I've not been treated well in the past and so when someone takes the time to right their wrongs and the wrongs of someone else a healing takes place. One of the most important things is to feel safe physically, emotionally and mentally in a relationship. It takes effort and teamwork. ❤️

 #FeelingCherished #Effort 

Save the date!!

I can't wait to share my good news! The date has been set and my heart is compleatly full right now. Look out for your invitations in the mail.

The power of love is an amazing thing and it's been given back ten fold. ❤️

I'm so excited!

Who knew so much planning was involved? I've assisted in planning, but when it's for you, it's a whole different animal. Kid is off to school, and we've got more packing and planning ahead. More dates have been confirmed, now how are we going to pay for all this? I'm going to probably cry my eyes out the whole time and ruin my make up. Love, dedication, effort and commitment go a long way!

Shine bright like a diamond 💎

Sitting Pretty!

Today didn't go as planned and that's just fine with me. Sat in as a model today, not too bad huh? 

I am not Afraid

So last year I finished a series of hearing test, the result slight hearing loss, but I was told there might be a cure. Hearing test  quickly turned into blood work, then to MRI and then to the optometrist  Talks have now turned to discussing my thyroid and other serious conditions. Guess I'm not Superwoman after all. God has the last report. He is my healer and has the cure.

Often times single parents neglect their health due to time constraints. I knew I was having an issue, but between raising my child, school and work, I put my health off. The current result is some hearing loss. It's effected my life in every way, especially the music and social life. I will bounce back from this because I serve an awesome God.

Let God Fight Your Battles

You don't have to respond to those who attack ,belittle ,or insult you. You may not see it ,but God is dealing with them. If they persist, he will arrange their harvest in such a way that they'll know it's because of what they did to you. 

Off the Meds and Off her Rocker

It does not matter how you execute it, manipulation is witchcraft. Her ill and malicious behavior bothered me for a millisecond, then it did something crazy. I was motivated to push myself harder and I began to study human behavior on a deeper level. I wonder if the woman who stalked me for almost three years knows that. You can never win when you play dirty. You can't pretend to friends and family that your a "good christian" and slay God's child publicly and privately...your heart ain't pure. Our love and family is still going strong and still intact after all her attempts to destroy us...too bad so sad. I would love to sit down with her and find out why she hated me so much..I have a few ideas, but I'd love for her to speak her truth. No hiding behind social media, riding past my home, sending subliminal messages...just 100% honest about her whack behavior.

I Turned 40 Like A Boss!!

My mission is to always do things in love and that if anything is to be said for my life, it is that love is the resounding message. Love is like a boomerang, if you put it out there, it will return to you bigger and better than you could imagine. My 40th birthday was filled with lots of love, tears, friends, good food and good times. Thank you to everyone who loves me, thank you for being my friends and family and trusting me with your hearts. I love you forever and a day. 

The past four years the devil was busy. The demon came in many forms, it tried to attack my health, made fun of my body, laughed at me when trying to press my way through school, tried to reach me through my little one, it worked really hard to try and destroy me, my family and my spirit. The one thing the devil doesn't realize about itself is how utterly stupid it is, and how much bigger and better my God is.  No real child of God will try to destroy another. I thank God for giving me the talent and know how to fool the fool. Through all the things the devil tried to steal, it never took my joy. In fact God saw fit to increase my territory and the things on the horizon is so much more I could ever imagine for myself. I thank God for allowing me to see another year. I turned 40 like a BOSS, what have you done lately? #POW