Confirmations

It always feels good to know when you've truly connected, vulnerable and in sync with someone. Even at the age of twelve he knew enough to truly get to know me for who I was then and who I am now, that is how you build a good relationship. I've got some pretty awesome and supportive Ex-boyfriends. As I move onto my next chapters, my happily ever after, my next child (a daughter I hope) my MAT, my house and all God has in store, I'm comforted that I have their love and full support. 

Before you are lovers, learn to be friends. No jealousy, no hostility, true love, lifetime friendship. 

A Man's House...

A man's house is his castle until his queen comes home. 

Kingdom Kid

Crack me open and break me down Lord. Destroy what is not like you and replace it with your likeness. 

You and I.

Bad night last night all due to fear, hurt ,and poor communication. It spilled over into this morning with me making the first move. I usually run, shut down and shut out those that I love who have hurt me; but I'm growing and my relationships are EVERYTHING to me. 

I've learned that shutting down is my way of protecting myself when I'm hurt, not realizing that me backing away, hurts the other person too. I rob them of the opportunity to connect with me. I come across as scary ,when in actuality I'm afraid of being hurt again ,so I put my guard up. I put up a hard shell of armor and swear off all those who try to cross my path again. All I ever want is to feel loved,protected and cherished. Thank God I've grown and I'm continually working on deliverance. I thank God that I expressed myself today. I was still somewhat defensive when I expressed myself, just knowing I'd recieve a cold and emotionless response but instead you responded with the purest form of unconditional love. I knew then that you really loved me. You in turn poured out your heart right back. My God! Love has to work both ways. 

We both hurt each other ,and we hurt knowing we didn't take care of each other's feelings which shows selflessness . We talked it out and sincerely apologized to each other. The tears that we both shed washed away the bruises from our past that others had left. I remember pouring out my heart and sincerely apologizing to someone years ago and all they were concerned about was not being respected. Today I've learned that in order for one to respect you ,you have to genuinely respect the other's heart as well and willingly be able to put your heart out there too. I understand now that, that individual's reaction to me was feigned emotion. 

Today's love lesson brought us closer to each other and tightened our bond. I'm getting used to this healthy , unconditional type of love and communication ,and I look forward to us continuing to growing together. What's the point of being in a relationship if only one is participating? It's a selfish tactic usually out of fear. How you live in that fear and hurt sets the tone for how you love and move about in the world. Today was an eye opener. There was a flood of tears and openess which is a testimony to how much we truly love each other. I thank you for loving me flaws and all. 

Mine

On my mind up past my bedtime, no rest at the kingdom

Alone in my place, my heart is away

All that I can think of is, we should get married

We should get married

Let's stop holding back on this and let's get carried away

[Pre-Hook:]

Stop making a big deal out of the little things

Cause I got big deals and I got little things

Got everything I'm asking for but you

Stop making a big deal out of the little things, let's get carried away

Come right now, you know where I stay

Don't Confuse the two

It's Contagious

The heart is precious and when broken it takes time to heal, this does not mean it's incapplable of loving, in fact Christ teaches us to love and forgive in order to heal. It is also a gift when those that let us down ask for forgiveness and contribute to the healing.Love has never killed anyone last I checked, and if you love someone, let them really know how you feel before it's to late. As you can see I'm in a loving mood today, it's in the air and it's contagious, I hope you catch it! 

Who makes you feel like this song?

I have flashbacks whenever I play this song. I think about the fullness that love can give one's heart and I smile, I cry and sometimes giggle when I think of love. It's a brilliant thing to have don't you agree? I've not been treated well in the past and so when someone takes the time to right their wrongs and the wrongs of someone else a healing takes place. One of the most important things is to feel safe physically, emotionally and mentally in a relationship. It takes effort and teamwork. ❤️

 #FeelingCherished #Effort