Hymnal Songs

So I decided to try a Gospel Improve class this semester. Growing up Catholic, and Catholic school didn't provide a ton of gospel influence. I've sung in choirs, and even groups, longing to catch the runs and trills. I've always sung conservatively, and I believe it is in part of my upbringing and schooling.

Gospel is heavy laden in improv. If I can shed and learn my chord changes which are also tied heavily to jazz and the blues, I can sing and play for myself. The desire to do this rang out for me last Saturday when I sang at a funeral. The person playing couldn't find the chord changes and I had to politely gesture her to stop playing as she was throwing me off.

So the kids are feed and asleep and I am on keys for a few to pluck out the melody for a hymn I am learning, wish me luck fellow musicians.

Peace!

Summer Camp

So I'm seriously thinking of throwing a fundraiser for my son. There are a couple of camps I would love to send him to, but the cost is outrageous. I also have to think about possibly finding a driver or paying someone to drop him off and pick him up everyday. Then there is before and aftercare. Lawd!

I need him to have the best, and these days sometimes the best cost. I've been wanting to encourage and develop something's and going this route seems promising. Scholarships, grants, donations, anything to make this happen. I've even considered starting my own one day. Who knows, with God anything is possible.

Come On People

#Comedy

Kisses

I kiss him while he's asleep, every moment I can catch him during play...and overload before school. I love he.

You Must Be Parched!!

Don't be that chick, it's not a good look.

Desperation

You're over 30 and still doing elementary foolishness. I feel bad for you, no maturity.

Ugly Girl

I had to repost this one

Family Time

Watching Tron ,The Aristocats and The Golden compass with my boys. I may be a girlie girl, but I love me some Sci-Fi , so Tron is first up...and Kung-Fu movies will be watched next week. I'm still sick but not too sick to put in some family time.

Can't Slow Me Down

Hey folks as many of you know we are fasting, myself and some of my brothers and sisters in Christ from work and school are fasting as well.

I wanted to say Thank you Father, though my body is not doing what I need it to do, you still keep me. I'm learning my lessons the hard way y'all. When your body says no, listen! It will either shut itself down or self destruct , mine is doing a little bit of both.
Mothers are usually the last to go to the doctor because they run the ship. Well I made a promise to god to take better care of myself. I want to live a long life. After falling ill late last year and feeling so horrible, I made the decision to start going to the doctor.

I can't wait for February 5th to come! I've never been so hyped to see a Dr. The problems I was having are acting like they want to bother me again....sorry ya can't have my health. I also promised myself a real vacation....I never ever treat myself...time to change that. I have my favorite color and scarf to comfort me. Kiddo is gone for the weekend and I'm on my way to bed at 5pm lol.

Be blessed folks and be mindful of your health. Keep me in your prayers, as I do for you and mine.

Train A Child Up

You betta know Jesus lil boy lol!

Dream Big

I had a very interesting conversation with a man the other day, and he was asking me where was my business plan. I guess there is no time like the present. Going to really pray on it. I'll be asking God to place the right people in my path to get it started. I'll be asking God to provide time, and a clear headspace to write out my vision.

I guess I've been scared to approach, but I can't leave this earth without trying. Who knows, I may leave behind something impact full that my children can be proud of. Welp, I'm a bit tired but there is plenty of studying to be done. Dream big my loves, I know I am.

Momma and Daddy

Picked my momma up from the ER about 1am. Her health is deteriorating and to see her in pain breaks my heart. I've never been delusional about aging or illness, but it still tough all the same when it's a loved one.

I'm really considering having her move in with me. Some have suggested a Hospice, but whenever she has been ill, I've taken care of her, and I won't have it any other way. If I could move Daddy in I would do that too. He's so many miles alway and facing Chemo. If I could just find a way to get him out her my mind and heart can rest easy. My parents are my parents, no i did I not have a childhood, yes I had to grow up sooner than I wanted but I honor and love them regardless.

I'm thankful for the things they contributed to my life, and the things I didn't get, God provided. The things I longed for, God reconciled with my heart. Parents don't come with instruction manuals to raise us,they do their best and pray they don't break us in the process lol. Lord if I got to really writing about my life....geesh, but I'm thankful. Every thing my parents did and did not do, still was able to produce such a great young woman as myself.

They are proud of me and I and even more proud of them.

Love you Mom and Dad

Priorities

I find it baffling when people put themselves before their children. I would go without before my child didn't have. I have and still do go without most of the time now. This weighs heavy on me on this am as I see my child off to school. Had a great round table discussion last night about how we prioritized our lives. My main priority is my child, and making sure he does not feel the brunt of what I go through to make sure he has.

Many times I've robbed Peter to pay Paul, or purchased groceries just for him, while I eat from a loved one. This stunned some of my peers, don't let the fabulous fool you, the coins and folds are all for my kid, I just happen to know how to hook an outfit up and make it look like a million bucks.

I don't have a problem with us wearing hand me downs, or not being able to take exotic trips. The lessons I'm installing in my baby boy is needs and necessity, and most of all patience. I cringe when I hear parents tell out "put that back, I ain't got no money" to their kids in the store. They should never have to feel that. The pressure of this recession should be known, and economic times should be discussed, but they as children should be gently shielded from it as much as they can. No child should have to see a parent worry about such thing. if they do, it should be gently discussed. Children take on far too much worry, let them be kids and have their innocence.
A child should be aware of adult things, when they are mentally and mutually able to process it.

I'm teaching my son the value of money now and what it is to save and spend, what is a need and what is a want, trust me they will thank you for it later. In the end he will value when either I or himself are able to obtained things by putting priority and patience first. How many folks out their have the latest shoes, newest car, can eat out several times a week..... but not have a savings set up for their child. Lets get it together folks, when you know better, you do better.

Support

This can apply to friendships, family and even work.

Joy!!!!!

Words can't describe how blessed, and happy I am. There is a peace that has settled and a fire that tickles. My lil one is happier than I've ever seen him, and my heart is so full with content about that. Lord, I may not have what others have or be where others judge I should be, but you provide all I need, and the fire you light in my spirit keeps me pressing for my BA, then onto my Masters.


It took a minute to get here, but I ain't gonna lie, it feels amazing. The devil was busy, trying its hardest to crush me and threaten my life. Too bad, so sad, you lose. 2013 Me and mine are off to a great start. What God has put together....you know the rest.

Be easy

Pregnancy

It can either give you back your body, or totally change it. Regardless it's a blessing.

Attached At The Hip

He keeps touching me, and it's driving me nuts, but I wouldn't have it any other way. #Children #NoPersonalSpace #Parenthood

New Car

What a long day, but I had to jot down this funny. So I'm at the gas station getting gas, my lil ones in tow. My baby boy says "Mommy, you have to get a new car, this car is broken," no sooner did he say that the car cut off. TALK ABOUT HILARIOUS!!! No truer words son, no truer words. #JesusBeANewRide

Not Just an Ex

It's 3:08, my 2nd boyfriend ever mother died...just found out. I was there when his dad died well over 15 years ago and now Momma Noel is gone.

He gave me my third dog, kept that dog for almost 15 years... I was 21 when he gave him to me. I was over the moon ,when I was able to return the favor, and give him my dog when I had to move. I know that dog has been great source of companion ship, and reminds him of his first dog bear that he had when we first met.. My ex and I are close, like brother and sister, was even going to help him and his ex plan their wedding. We've been in each others lives through sickness and in health mainly the sickness and God pulled him through each and every time and I'm so thankful I'm hurting for him right now. Our love and respect run deep and wide. I remember his dad,Pastor Noel picking me up early every Sunday morning to come to church to fellowship. His family became mine, and mine his.

I can't imagine losing a parent, so right now my mind is wandering racing a mile a minute, just like the rest of the family.
My heart hurts right now. He's not just my ex ,he's my brother he's my family and I'm praying he is ok.

We would hang out and fall into our old ways of laughing and joking like we had never missed a beat. I don't have a lot of exes but like him and a couple of others we are great friends ,and they are now like my brothers always looking out, keeping a watchful eye over me. They'll always be there for me, just like I'll always be there for them. Gosh this sucks, but I know God is in control.

People Who Exploit Children

I love Law and Order, watched it last night. Two guys who didn't like each other , are going at it. One guy decides to disclose and ridicule the other man about his child that happens to have "challenges." The man had tried to protect his kid and this other guy with no regard for the child and the guy decides to disclose the child's "challenges."

He wanted to draw a reaction out of the parent. I thought it was disgusting but the reality of it is, people do this to parents and children all the time. Happened to me, and mine, true story.

Obviously people like this are cruel , manipulative people. God help their kids or kids they know if they have any.

GUTTER